TimeLoops, Visions and Dreams

[BethAnne]

All Time is One....or how I got stuck in a TimeLoop.  My Question is WHY?

So this is how I got caught up in all of this KarmaDrama.
My friend Nyles, Son of Oliver Nelson, gifted me with a Soul Retrival.  During that I "saw" a Jaguar Shaman.  He turned out to be Olmec.
After this session I started having dreams of this Jaguar Changing Statues....which I later saw in  Santa Fe at the William Siegal Gallery. https://williamsiegal.com/


I arrogantly and unwisely stared down this shaman which led to my being tied to him in a Dark Magic Ritual....which got me "caught" in a cycle of rituals with this group of people.  My now father was the shaman, one son was the swordsman, the other the druggest.  Most of my"family" participated.   I have relived this handful of rituals in altered states.  Nyles was one of the leaders each time.

Between alternative healings and now this last Release I feel that I have let go of this TimeLine Connection.  Even though it was a stressful connection it was all I had for 60 years.  While intellectually I am relieved, emotionally I am sad and confused.  My 3 children have been part of these rituals in past lives and they are not dealing well with my "new" status.  I have 9 grandchildren and I am not allowed to see any of them for various bogus reasons.

On a side note...one of the reasons I moved to Santa Fe was to get distance from Nyles.  He was getting increasingly dark and I didn't feel safe.  Two summers ago he shotgunned his girlfriend and then himself.   He was 50 and she was 25.
http://www.daily-times.com/story/archives/2014/08/05/san-juan-county-sheriffs-office-identifies-shooter-mondays/75989646/
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XyEbEiXqSAo

[BethAnne]

Here are a couple of old dreams that are relevant to this mystery.  It's easier to provide a link to my blog that rewrite them.  I had had dreams for several months before that would have warned me of this Bell's if I knew what it was I was looking for.

Jaguar Shaman, Oct 2010
http://bethnm.blogspot.com/2010/10/jaguar-shaman.html
This was before I had the soul retrieval but still having dreams and visions.  I found this image on google and contacted Ross to ask if I could use it.  A couple of years later my friend Margo and I were having a talk and it turned out that she and Ross had gone to college together in Chicago and he was a good friend.  Later, I met him in Santa Fe and we became friends.   Margo also was good friends with Hillary Clinton during High School.


My Encounter with the Mayan, Aug 2010  (who turned out to be Olmec)
http://bethnm.blogspot.com/2010/09/headache-from-hell.html
A few days after this I got hit with Bell's Palsy from Chicken Pox Virus which made the right side of my face look like I had a massive stroke.  I still have a slight crazy smile.  The right side of my body is what held all these memories that body work is releasing.


Popol Vuh, Sept 2010
http://bethnm.blogspot.com/2010/08/popol-vuh.html

My Encounter with Good and Evil, June 2010
http://bethnm.blogspot.com/2010/06/my-encounter-with-evil.html

The Skellig Michael Dream,  Sept 2009
http://bethnm.blogspot.com/2009/09/skellig-michael-dream.html
Everything in this dream has come to pass except the "Star Wars Cantina Party"
The Skellig Michael Line is a sacred Ley Line that runs from the island to Jerusalem and crosses with the Rose Line made famous in Dan Brown's "Da Vinci Code".


Dreams, July 2009
http://bethnm.blogspot.com/2009/07/dreams.html
The "evil guy" stealing my daughters car is behind a lot of this.
In the dream of the man sad over his son.....at the time my son, Ryan White, could no longer have kids so this was confusing.   He has since had a test tube baby with medical complications because of his conception.   His son is now 2.

This isn't a dream but I'm just including it.  For years I was on Crow's Nest Forum and the GLOP forum before it's incarnation.  I started noticing that what I would write about would end up in sketches on the Daily Show and SNL which isn't that big of a deal.  It makes sense that the writers would scour the internet and forums for ideas.  Sometimes the wording was exactly what I wrote. 
Then I saw this sketch and scratched my head.
Why I like SNL
http://bethnm.blogspot.com/2009/07/why-i-like-snl.html

I wondered if it had anything to do with the "tricks" Larry taught me??? 
Happy Birthday Larry
http://bethnm.blogspot.com/2011/02/happy-birthday-larry.html

I just noticed this dream so will add it too.  At the time it would have been inconceivable that I was moving and especially Santa Fe, known for being expensive to live.  Yet, by April first I moved in Rose's Casa, someone who I had been dreaming about for a couple years.  Someone I met "accidently" on Craig's List when I was looking for a cheap room to rent.
A Rose by Any Other Name, Feb 2011
http://bethnm.blogspot.com/2011/02/rose-by-any-other-name.html
Rose's Book
http://www.findinghelen.com/

[Dandelion]

I was a like a walk in, but something different where I was containing two personalities

Seth briefly mentioned something in Session 398 in Early Sessions #8 that might be something to consider.  He was mostly talking about Rob's father who had partially left his physical body and was basically waiting for the remainder which was still in his body to eventually rejoin him.  Seth said that sometimes a situation arose when sort of the opposite happened, not of a personality partially leaving but rather one that doesn't leave.

"At birth the past reincarnated self may in some cases refuse or be unable to let go control over physical matter.  When this happens there is awareness on the part of the new personality of the old life, but more, a clinging over, a tenacious holding onto, on the part of the previous self."  .....  "The ego is so strong that it clings even to the new materialization."

So maybe when you were a toddler, the past reincarnated self finally let go or at least mostly let go, so that the new personality could take over and develop.

[BethAnne]

Thanks Danylion for this insight.  I've been thinking on this.
This metaphysical stuff requires walking on a tightrope doesn't it.  On one hand you have to be open to new ideas and on the other you can't get hung up on stuff. 
I don't know what is going on so try to see how it reflects in my manifestations.

I have never felt part of that family and they have never felt I was a part of them.  I can remember trying to run away at 5 because I understood that.  We have all come to the end of our rope and I think we are all relieved that we no longer have to deal with each other and are becoming a faded memory.  While my "new" life is going off on exciting tangents that I could not have followed before now.

[BethAnne]

There seems to be a story line with this series of dreams.  This has been reoccuring the past few days.  In the Dream I know I'm dreaming and that someone is feeding me important information that I need to remember.  Then, of course, I can't retain all of it.
With my dreams I use a pendulum to "ask" if it is a personal or mass event dream which are the only ones I share. And I'll check my dream journal to see if it is part of previous dreams.

This weeks Dream Theme is of two bright, blood red vibrating Circles that are separating from each other.  Each contains "Humanity".

[Dandelion]

Seth also talked about other intriguing possibilities, such as a personality being attached to two different entities.  I think a lot of the stuff he mentions in his various books may be beyond our egos to truly comprehend.  And even if we could understand some of the really mind-stretching stuff, how much effect would it have on our current physical life?  I guess that might depend upon our commitment to pursuing it.  For me, I just want to do a good job in this reality, to learn whatever I'm supposed to be learning from it, so I can move on to other realities.  As Seth (or maybe it was Seth II) said, the problems created in this reality have to be resolved in this reality.  Another thing he indicated was that we don't always create attachments to family members or other "important" people in our lives, and when we move on to other lives or other realities, we have no further contact with them.

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two bright, blood red vibrating Circles that are separating from each other.  Each contains "Humanity".

What does the color "red" symbolize to you?  When I was young, I occasionally had what I thought of as "red" dreams which started out as normal everyday kind of situations, but then the atmosphere would begin to feel threatening and eventually turn red, coloring the entire scene.  I would normally wake up while trying to gather together people I was with and convince them to leave/escape the felt, but unknown, danger.  The others were usually oblivious, and I would have trouble convincing any of them that we really needed to leave before it was too late.

[BethAnne]

The Red in the dream was especially RED.  Vitality, passion, volcanic energy, new life, menstral blood. 
I'm of the opinion that Worlds are separating as the Vibe polarizes as being demonstrated in our politics.  Delores Cannon has stuff on that.  I see the circles as Earth Vibrations separate.  Like hummingbird wings.  Now you see em, now you don't,,,but both exist.
I'm playing around on my blog with this idea.  "An Experiment"     http://bethnm.blogspot.com/2016/07/an-experiment.html

The whole fragmented personality thing is interesting.  The fragmenting happened in relived dark rituals which  made eternal connections.  Or not.    What I find important NOW is how the energy has flipped.  OMG!  So bringing it up is because using Seth concepts totally turned reality around.  It took awhile but at this moment I am at peace with all.  And I feel the Flow of this dreams carried me to this point.  I'm seeing it in people around me also.  Those who buck it tho are having a lot of drama in their faces right now. 

This is how Bizzaro this got at one point.  My mom is sitting drinking coffee watching "American's Most Wanted" and up pops a photo of my sister-in-law as the victim. 

[BethAnne]

A fragmented personality?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AY9VOD2hxVM

[BethAnne]

This was the next video that came up and resonates with me.  I didn't talk till I was 3 and I remember the moment about that time when I realized my family was NOT hearing what I was saying in my mind.  I think the quality they talk about is why I'm a very good tarot reader.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o4tpaCKvQAs

The Eyes made me think of this...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zuQTmVCEn4

[Deb]

A fragmented personality?

I have to say this creeped me out a bit. I found an article about them in the Daily Mail, and the book sure sounds interesting. Fragmented personality... simultaneous probable lives... there was definitely something going on there.

The Midnight Special movie reminds me a little of the old Stephen King book/movie Firestarter. She was a little weapon too. Well, and let's not forget Carrie. Stephen King loves to give kids amazing psychic powers (The Shining).

[BethAnne]

She was a little weapon too.

The thing was, he wasn't a weapon, but a bridge to another parallel reality.

That's why I used the music to "bridge" to my own parallel reality.  You "trick" the brain with this symbol and then reality starts filling in with this new version.   The music is a symbol of "going Home".      I found it powerful

http://bethnm.blogspot.com/2016/07/an-experiment.html

[BethAnne]

Fragment Personalities?  Just throwing this out there..
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KiXgEXv9KtI

[BethAnne]

I like these not because it's about Bigfoot but the concept of being able to be Mindful and shift to another "Elevator Floor" dimensionally.  This is shifting Timelines.  There are 3 parts if you want to look it up.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yImlT1-6Qmg
To get perspective.   
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WvPCC0Ley_8

[BethAnne]

This is sort of an alternate life example.

My niece called me for my take on what she is dealing with.  I believe she had an example of a parallel reality amped up because of her psychic abilities.
When Niki calls her mom a photo of her pops up on her mom's phone.  Recently someone else's photo has been showing. 
She did a google image search and found out this was a photo of another Niki.  As MY Niki researched it seems she came up with about a dozen spooky coincidents regard this alter-Nik.  Same birthdays, names, situations, locations. 

I wonder if this is an alternate version of Niki/Niki's life?