Healers and the Healing Process

[eyelive4ever2]

To many people I may seem super successful considering the childhood I have had. Well, that is fine, but I feel I have read so many books that I say I should be working full time as a healer/intuitive NOW. I believe I have hidden/invisible ideas bursting forth who knows when, interfering with my success. For instance, I think that I should have created/attracted to me by now a best friend to jump up and down with when I have my successful moments. When I have felt energy beings around me, or I have felt energy flow in or out of me, then I believe I need/want someone to tell, to share with. It is not enough that I have energy being doctors listening to me. Maybe that is the plan, but I feel like a child that wants parents in these bodies. There is a huge part of me that clings tenaciously to being a child. So this child that I am does not want to help others without being helped first. Why not rescue this child? This child that I am wants to be cuddled so much, that me as the adult cannot even get close to others because of overwhelming feelings of wanting to be rescued AS A CHILD!!
I want to pluck out this neediness. I want to pluck out that whole childhood. I want the therapy that can be found in that Hands of Light book. I remember one man in that book going through so much therapy that he literally became a new person. Barbara Brennan could see his energy fields as they changed into another being. I remember that she saw some kind of cocoon that he emerged from. Then it was like he was a brand new person.
I believe that hypnosis can do that for a person. I want to help others to know there is no death, that we are holograms, so why is therapy of any sort not forth coming? Why doesn't a grant to that college based on the book Hands of Light just manifest in front of me?  I would like to just get on with my mission in this life. I don't need to be a child that needs cuddling. Maybe this kind of talk is why I think I remember an abusive childhood. Not thinking I need the cuddling of a child NOW may be the constant creation of that childhood which had no cuddling !!!!!!!! Since I am creating that childhood now. But how could it be me creating it when I am an offshoot, a fragment, of a vaster energy being ? This is so highly confusing.
I remember reading that we have to learn to take responsibility for these lives. So we don't have all the knowledge that it takes to lead these lives, yet we have to take responsibility for them ? There is a great amount of ambiguity in Seth books. OR, I don't have enough knowledge to understand. Without enough knowledge, how can I take responsibility? It is my understanding that all the knowledge that we are is so vast, and fast, that we can't even deal with it all from these slow bodies. So how is anybody supposed to take responsibility?

[Deb]

Why not rescue this child?

I hear many new agers talking about healing the child within. If that Hands of Light college is out of reach right now, maybe there's something else that is within reach? These folks have online courses about all sorts of stuff, and I think for most (maybe all) of them you pay what you want to pay, it's an honor system checkout. http://www.dailyom.com/cgi-bin/courses/courses.cgi I think what they do is send a daily automated email with exercises for the length of the course. I did a meditation course of some sort years ago so I'm stating the above from memory.

I think hypnosis is a great idea too, even self-hypnosis. Does Seth say we hypnotize ourselves all the time?

[Sena]

I think hypnosis is a great idea too, even self-hypnosis. Does Seth say we hypnotize ourselves all the time?

Deb, I found this post when I searched for "hypnosis". Yes, my understanding is that according to Seth we hypnotize ourselves all the time. If we do it unconsciously, we could make ourselves ill:

"If you believe that you come down with a cold every time you are in a draft, you are using natural hypnosis." (NOPR)

[Deb]

Thanks Sena. I think I'm coming down with a cold right now actually. A good time to test out reversing that with natural hypnosis. And some elderberry extract because I believe it works.